The very first thing I would like to say is,
Today was SERIOUSLY one of the worst days I had in years. First, Biology paper was so DAMN HARD!!! I'M GOING TO FAIL!!!! I was going on and on about it during recess, and Janice, Ashley and Rachel were like, chill la, we are all going to do badly larh, your not the only one. BUT they really don't get it!!! I don't EXACTLY mind getting a fail on the very first exam, because its like normal when we switch to Form 4. The big problem here is WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO TELL MY MOTHER?????? She's seriously going to KILL ME!!!! Those of you who know me well would know that my mum isn't exactly like everyone else's mum.
The worst part was when the 4 Nekad students said that many people in my class FAILED PHYSICS!!!! AND I AM ONE OF THEM!!!! I really LOST IT when my classmate told me. What the hell am I suppose to tell my mum???? Plus, my elder brother NEVER failed Physics, Biology or Chemistry. He only failed Moral. The upside is that I pass my Add Maths. The whole time during History exam, I was only thinking : OMG, how can I fail Physics???!!!!! I really never expected it!!! Because I managed to answer the questions okay. Maybe a C or D okay la, but a FAIL????
Then there's the problem of my family. I really don't understand why can't I just have a normal life like everyone else. Sometimes I would get so angry with her, but I would just hold it. Each passing day it would get worse, how am I suppose to live with so much of hatred and anger at her?? I don't feel like boring my friends with this anymore for they have been hearing it for the past year, or 2. I just want it to go away, once and for all. The worst part is I am like, alone carrying this thing, though my friends are always there to support me, but they just won't really get it. Plus the timing has to be so perfect until 'we' break up around the same time. How much more bad news can I possibly take???
The last thing is my dad. Ever since he trimmed the grass in our garden last year before Christmas, he had this really bad neck sprain. It didn't go off, but just kept coming worse. After New Year, he went to see the doctor, and he said that his neck has too much tension. So he gave some medication for that. Unfortunately, it didn't cure. His neck was back to normal, but the pain stretched right up to his thigh. It can be really painful till he can't even walk, and he can't even bend down. He went to see the doctor again 2 days ago, and the doctor said that its got to do with his nerves. His nerve cells are now crashing into pelvic girdle's place, and that is what that causes the pain. He gave my dad medication, and told him that if it doesn't get better in 3 days, he has to take an X-ray to see how serious is it.
The doctor also said not to do any housework, or lifting of any heavy loads. When my mum ask me to tell my dad to cut the grass, I told her about the whole problem my dad was having. And she can tell me that whatever I said was just plain excuses for my dad is lazy to do work. I got so MAD with her, and we ended up shouting at each other. C'mon la, what kind of sick person would ask a person who can hardly walk to go and cut the grass when THAT was the cause of the whole problem my dad is having now??? I really don't know how much longer I can put up with her. Sure, I've put up with this for the last 3 years, but how much more does she expect me to be able to cope with??
Well, that's about it. SPM results are out tomorrow, hopefully my brother will get straight A1's!!! Ciao!!
-aNgELiNe-
*signing off*
HAPPY SWEET 16 RAMONA!!!! Hope you had a good time today with your debate competition!! Liz too!! You guys have to tell me EVERYTHING!!!
Today was SERIOUSLY one of the worst days I had in years. First, Biology paper was so DAMN HARD!!! I'M GOING TO FAIL!!!! I was going on and on about it during recess, and Janice, Ashley and Rachel were like, chill la, we are all going to do badly larh, your not the only one. BUT they really don't get it!!! I don't EXACTLY mind getting a fail on the very first exam, because its like normal when we switch to Form 4. The big problem here is WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO TELL MY MOTHER?????? She's seriously going to KILL ME!!!! Those of you who know me well would know that my mum isn't exactly like everyone else's mum.
The worst part was when the 4 Nekad students said that many people in my class FAILED PHYSICS!!!! AND I AM ONE OF THEM!!!! I really LOST IT when my classmate told me. What the hell am I suppose to tell my mum???? Plus, my elder brother NEVER failed Physics, Biology or Chemistry. He only failed Moral. The upside is that I pass my Add Maths. The whole time during History exam, I was only thinking : OMG, how can I fail Physics???!!!!! I really never expected it!!! Because I managed to answer the questions okay. Maybe a C or D okay la, but a FAIL????
Then there's the problem of my family. I really don't understand why can't I just have a normal life like everyone else. Sometimes I would get so angry with her, but I would just hold it. Each passing day it would get worse, how am I suppose to live with so much of hatred and anger at her?? I don't feel like boring my friends with this anymore for they have been hearing it for the past year, or 2. I just want it to go away, once and for all. The worst part is I am like, alone carrying this thing, though my friends are always there to support me, but they just won't really get it. Plus the timing has to be so perfect until 'we' break up around the same time. How much more bad news can I possibly take???
The last thing is my dad. Ever since he trimmed the grass in our garden last year before Christmas, he had this really bad neck sprain. It didn't go off, but just kept coming worse. After New Year, he went to see the doctor, and he said that his neck has too much tension. So he gave some medication for that. Unfortunately, it didn't cure. His neck was back to normal, but the pain stretched right up to his thigh. It can be really painful till he can't even walk, and he can't even bend down. He went to see the doctor again 2 days ago, and the doctor said that its got to do with his nerves. His nerve cells are now crashing into pelvic girdle's place, and that is what that causes the pain. He gave my dad medication, and told him that if it doesn't get better in 3 days, he has to take an X-ray to see how serious is it.
The doctor also said not to do any housework, or lifting of any heavy loads. When my mum ask me to tell my dad to cut the grass, I told her about the whole problem my dad was having. And she can tell me that whatever I said was just plain excuses for my dad is lazy to do work. I got so MAD with her, and we ended up shouting at each other. C'mon la, what kind of sick person would ask a person who can hardly walk to go and cut the grass when THAT was the cause of the whole problem my dad is having now??? I really don't know how much longer I can put up with her. Sure, I've put up with this for the last 3 years, but how much more does she expect me to be able to cope with??
Well, that's about it. SPM results are out tomorrow, hopefully my brother will get straight A1's!!! Ciao!!
-aNgELiNe-
*signing off*
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