Earth Hour, a Depressing Hour.

You will probably be wondering what on earth does my post tittle mean. Well, this is because the moment Earth Hour started, my mum which has been acting all ANGRY THE WHOLE DAMN DAY just burst at me and Godwin. Let me try and explain this in the simplest way I can, for its kinda hard to understand if you're not a Christian (no offence!!).

Okay, so here's how it goes. During mass, something we call when all of us are gathered in church, my mum always insist that we SIT TOGETHER, if and only there is no space. So, many times my dad didn't sit with us, because he will leave us at the gate, and go and get a parking space, then come and find us. Today, he didn't sit with us again, so my mum, ALREADY in an angry mood, got even MORE angrier. So then, there is this time, where we all suppose to hold hands and sing a song, which is known as Our Father's prayer. My mum has this thing, about holding hands till the song is finished, and by finished means that till the second final phrase, which will only be sung, or said after the first round. Those who are Roman Catholics will get it, I'm not sure if the rest could get it, sorry!!

So anyway, my mum is the one which sits always in between me and Godwin. So she always holds our hands really tight. I and Godwin on the other hand, do NOT LIKE holding her hand till the second half, because most people only hold hands for the first round!! So generally, we will try to wriggle our hands free from hers, but she will hold it really tight, so naturally, I and Godwin will apply force to remove our hands. By force, meaning that we use our thumbs and fingers to push outwards, and if our nails are long, it will scratch her hands. Today, she called me and Godwin to the room, and scolded us, really spitefully, telling us off that if we scratch her hands today and so on using our SO CALLED LONG NAILS!!! I cut my nails YESTERDAY, and SHE IS ACCUSING ME OF THAT???!!!! I can't even SCRATCH MYSELF FOR THAT MATTER NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY!!! And when I told her that, she spitefully told me that now I'm trying to give stupid EXCUSES to get out of it!!!

Now, come's the worst part. She told me that if I and Godwin did not like sitting beside her during church, then we might as well DON'T GO. And she can say some more for the REST OF OUR LIVES!!! WTF LARH!!! AS IF I CAN'T GO BY MYSELF!!! Then, she told us to tell our dad, that from next week onwards, he doesn't need to follow us to church anymore, since he was originally an Anglican, who converted to Roman Catholic ever since he got married. And he also sometimes condemns the Roman Catholics, for all their faults, which I don't blame him at all, since we Roman Catholics know our faults and WE DO ACKNOWLEDGE IT!! My mum also said that I and Godwin are WELCOMED TO JOIN HIM AT HOME!!! And she just went out. She got so angry all because WE DON'T SIT TOGETHER AS ONE FAMILY IN CHURCH!!! WTF LARH!!

I was seriously angry, and also really, really hurt. I couldn't stop myself, so I just told Godwin, I'm NEVER GOING TO CHURCH WITH HER AGAIN!!! And went to the bathroom, in the dark, and try to get myself calm. Well, I've made up my mind, I won't be going to church anymore, all because of her, I don't fucking care anymore. If this is how she wants to be, then I will just play along. She thinks that I'm so bloody scared of her, that I'll just DO AS SHE SAYS!!! Well, not anymore, I'm NOT GOING TO PLAY ALONG LIKE A STUPID DOLL!!!

All this happened during Earth Hour, when the whole house was in darkness, except that the 2 computer sreens and the television's screen was emiting light. I dunno how I'm going to get through this, but it seems like I've lost all the happiness that I once had. I don't even know why I'm here now. If I could, I would get the hell out of here, but I know its impossible. But to me, if my mum can say that for my dad, I think the next think is she'll ask him to leave for good. I'll just have to prepare myself for the worst. =(

That's about it then, till next post!! Ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

P.S. I don't normally use inappropriate language, but I will when I'm really, REALLY angry or hurt. Sorry if it disturbs you!! =)

Fed Up.

GRRRR!!! I seriously CANNOT cooperate with people like her. She is like, NOT AGREEING WITH EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING!!!! WTH IS HER PROBLEM LARH???!!! I sit there listen to her going ON AND ON about the auditions, I get so damn worked up!! I really DO NOT agree with what she had stated!! I dunno how the hell the BOD can cope with her, THANK GOD I'm not in it!! Due to the kindness of my heart (LoL), I will not mention names.

Anyway, she really changes her mind like a ZILLION times over the date of the painting the lines on the carpark at Dataran Setia plus other parts of the school. First, its on a Friday, next week to be exact, then SUDDENLY only CHANGE to Saturday!! The next hour, CHANGE AGAIN BACK to Friday. Then, when I got back after I.U. Auditions, Bryan IM-ed me saying its CHANGED BACK AGAIN to Saturday!!! She seriously CANNOT make up her mind la. =S But I have already expressed all my thoughts to Janice, with expression, or maybe TOO much of it for I NEED to complain to SOMEBODY!!! Or I won't be satisfied.

Before the auditions started, Wei Wen was suddenly panting real hard when she was walking out of her class. She clutched the window grills for support, and she stayed in the same position, all the while breathing heavily with Yi Huey(I think that's how you spell it) supporting her for quite some time. Suddenly, she said she couldn't feel her hands, then Yi Huey asked her to sit down by the corridor. By that time, many people came to see, for the Interact Club was having their GM on the next class, and the LEOs were there for the auditions. When she started to get worse, John ran to get the PBSM and teachers. They took her down in a stretcher. Later, Pn.Chong told us she was sent to the hospital. Poor thing, I really hope she will be alright!!!

Well, that's about it then!! Tomorrow is EARTH HOUR!!! So please support Mother Nature by switching off your lights from 8.30pm-9.30pm tomorrow!! Mother Nature needs our help!! Ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

No Failures!! =D

This week was seriously eventful. First, got back most of my results, and THANK GOD I DID NOT FAIL ANYTHING!!! Was closed to failing, BUT did NOT!! =D The shocker was that the WHOLE of 4 Gigih had FAILED Modern Maths!!! I was like.....WTH!!!??? They all got their results faster than us, so we were all like...DEAD worried, especially Thineshwary. When I got my paper, I was like, OVER THE MOON!!! I got an A1, 85%!!! Though I could have gotten 90%, due to some stupid mistake, but nevermind that!!

Went to Sunway Pyramid just now. Bought some new things. Wanted to buy a bag that I saw, but I left most of my money at home!!! Damn sad, but I SOO have to go and get it!!! I need a decent handbag, since now I just simply use all kinds of silly looking bags when I go out. I definitely have to get one for Interact I.U. Day and LEO I.U. Day.

Also, gotten news from my aunt about our London trip. The initial plan was that we watch Phantom of the Opera, but now they want to watch Lion King as well. SCORE!!! I absolutely LOVE watching this plays!! Especially the ones from London. The MAMMA MIA crew that came down last year was a BLAST!!! I really loved that one among all the others I have seen. The Sound of Music was quite nice, and so was Annie, Oliver Twist and Peter Pan. We might even get the chance to go to PARIS!!! I seriously HOPE WE DO!!! =D There's also talk about going to Liverpool and Manchester, but I'm not as interested in that as in PARIS!! LoL

Lastly, I really think something is wrong somewhere. The more I TRY to avoid bumping into him, whether at the stairs, or the walk paths or corridors, it seems that he is somehow or rather THERE!! It seriously drives me crazy. Its like he is EVERYWHERE!!! Just like today for instance, I came down rushing to go to the Gazebo, and who happens to be in front of me?? HIM. Plus, he and his friend was so damn slow, and I was in a rush!! The funny part was that he tripped, and almost bumped a teacher who happened to be carrying a box, so I burst out laughing. Mean, right?? But I couldn't help it!! It was just hillarious!! They saw I was laughing, so I quickly turned and dashed to the Gazebo, laughing on the way!! =D After that, saw him again when I was going back to class, and another when I was coming out of the library!! *sighs* But I know that I'm still not over him, which is currently a problem for me!!!

Well, that's about it then. LEO I.U. auditions are tomorrow!! And I've got to stay back to watch for I'm in the I.U. commitee. Just hope I don't get anymore unexpected 'bumps' with him anymore!! Ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Sleepover + Sunway Lagoon

What a holiday!!! Was suppose to blog on Wednesday, but wasn't free at all!! First, my mum was on leave. So that means big fight here and there. The upside is that we got to watch Marley & Me!!! The show was really GOOD!!! Anyway, here are the recent updates.

On Monday, went to Mid Valley in the afternoon after fetching my aunt from the bus station. We went to this travel agency to book our tours when we are in London. I really can't WAIT till we go there!! The tours we booked were really good since it pretty much covers everything and was cheap!!

Anyway, was late at Ramona's, 2 hours late!!! Not my fault!! We got held up in the tour agency for their credit card machine was spoil!! Plus the rush hour traffic, we came back pretty late. Quickly took my bath, packed my things and rushed to Ramona's house. On the way, bought a new pair of sneakers!! Reached Ramona's around 8pm.

Liz and Janice were there. We talked for a while, more like GOSSIP for a while, then ate dinner with Ramona's family. Her mum is a really good cook!! I was seriously stuffed!! Talked about this and that during dinner with Ramona's dad. Here's pictures of us!! =D

After dinner, Ramona wanted us to go up to her room, but her dad insisted that he wanted to chit chat with us instead. So we all ended up talking about so many things with him till 10pm. Finally, he let Ramona take us upstairs.

Upstairs, we chit chatted for a while, then we changed into our jammies. Ramona went down to take her laptop, so that we could watch Slumdog Millionaire. We placed it in the middle, and Ramona offed the lights, so it was like in a cineama. The show was really SAD!!! I felt so sympathic for Jamal and Latika!! If you have watched the show, you would understand!! =P

Anyway, we chit chatted for a while before sleeping after the movie. We finally slept at around 1am. Got up around 7.45am the next day. Janice woke up next and then Liz. Ramona was the earliest, around 6 something. We had to carry Liz's matress in order to make her get up!! LoL. Went down for breakfast, was really stuffed, AGAIN!! Afterthat, Janice took her bath, then Liz, and then me. Ramona already took hers early in the morning. While I was bathing, the girls started playing with my camera. Even when I was keeping my things, they were really enjoying themselves taking random pictures!!

When I was ready, I in turn took a picture when they weren't aware. But Liz knew, so she was smiling really cutely at the camera!! =D

When Naadia (Ramona's sister) got back from tuition, and when Ramona's dad came back from a meeting, he took us to Sunway Lagoon. We left at around 12pm. There was a small commotion when we saw the traffic policemen, for there were 4 of us sitting at the back, and NOT wearing seatbelts!!! We quickly took the seatbelts and just pretended to hold them as if we were putting them on!! Thank God they didn't stop us!!! Parked in Sunway Pyramid, then we walked to Sunway Lagoon.

Ramona's dad bought us the tickets, THANKS for the treat uncle!!! The very first ride we went on was the Pirates Revenge, which is a rotating pirate ship that swivels 24m above the ground. OMG. I really thought I was going to puke!! I didn't know it was going to turn 360 degrees, and that also VERY SLOWLY!!! And I'm afraid of heights!! But needless to say, I got through it. Liz puked later, I was FEELING like it all the time, but I refused to give in. Janice then said that we shouldn't have gone on that the first.

Went down to the Water Park then, feeling all weird after the ride. Ramona's dad rented 2 double floats for us. Went round a river sort of thing with Naadia as my driver, since I can't really go in the water due to PMS, so I just sat on the float and Naadia took me round the river thing. I definitely DID NOT expect that there will be waterfalls here and there!! I seriously got DRENCHED!!! Plus, I'm not a really big fan of water, but I have to admit, it was kinda fun!! =D

Went back to the Dry Park for lunch. Ramona's dad treat again, and again, THANKS!! After lunch, went on many different rides. I didn't went with them on the roller coaster, was kinda scared. Later, went on the Grand Canyon River Rapids, then we went on the Niagara Falls Flume Ride. That was one of the best!! We went up really slowly in a cave, then down at the speed of light, splashing into the water!! While on it, Liz got cramps and Naadia got a backache!! Plus, we all were tightly squeezed in that small little boat!! Took picture with the pink duck, supposedly the mascot. Naadia took a picture of me and Liz when we weren't aware too!!

We also went on the Colorado Splash. Liz and Naadia didn't want to go. So me, Ramona and Janice climbed all the way up the stairs. Unfortunately, only 2 could go at a time. So I waited for Ramona to go with Janice, and come back up to accompany me. At that time, the stupid attendant was hitting on me. I was like..WTH la. Thank God Ramona ran up back to spare me his presence!!! Afterthat, Ramona and Janice took the last ride, some Vulture ride. Then, we left at around 4.40pm.

We took tea at Ramona's, then we chit chatted till our parents came to fetch us back. Liz left with Janice, and I waited for my dad to pick me up while talking to Ramona's parents and her. It was really SUPERB!!!

Thanks for the awesome time Ramona!!!

Well, that's about it then, school will start on Monday again!! And that's when I'll know my results!! YIKES!!! Ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Piano exam, Over. Fun time, Now!!

I finally took a test which I'm actually confident in NOT failing!!! But its not exactly a really important one.....which is PIANO!!! Theory to be exact. Thank God not practical!! I ALWAYS mess up the scales, and the sight-reading!! I took the test in SMK Bandar Utama (3). When I went in, I was like, one of the ONLY Indian candidate there. Most of them were Chinese, plus some Europeans as well.

Came back home, and called Janice. Talked for quite some time. Tonight AND tomorrow is gonna be SERIOUSLY FUN!!! I really can't wait!!! But I really could NOT BELIEVE that Janice's parents let her go so easily!!! Normally there will be like rules or something, but this time...NOTHING!! Which is really great!! The conversation between me and my mum when I was asking for permission to go, was really funny:

Mum: You mean to say that I won't be seeing you for 24 hours??
Me : Nope. 36 hours.
Mum: Why 36??
Me : Because you don't see me in the morning.
Mum: Haiyoooo. Fine la!!
Me : *rejoice*

You might not understand it. But all will be clear in due time. LoL. My aunt is coming today!! She will be here around 2.30pm. Then me, my dad and her will go to Mid Valley!! But not for shopping la =( We have to book our tour guide and all those things for when we go to London in June. Since its Matta Fair now, it will be extra cheap!!! Hopefully, I won't be late at Ramona's. After work jam can be really, REALLY BAD!!!

Well, that's about it. Tonight and tomorrow is gonna be REAL fun!! Can't wait!! I'll blog about it on Tuesday night, or maybe Wednesday. See first larh. Till next post then, ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Holidays!!!

March exams are FINALLY over!!! And holidays are HERE!!! I can say goodbye to my school uniform for 1 week!!!

BUT, now I have to revise on my piano theory for my exam is on Monday!!! *sighs* From one exam to another. I totally screwed up Chemistry today, Modern Maths was quite easy....won't wanna jinx it by saying easy ONLY. Got my Physics marks today, AND I DIDN'T FAIL!!! I was like seriously OVER THE MOON when I got my marks!!! Yes, I got a C, 55% to be exact, but at least I beat Liz, Janice and Ashley!!! LoL. No hard feelings guys!!! =P You all beat me in Add. Maths, so its my turn to RETURN the favour!!!!

My aunt said she wants to come down!!! YAY!! Can gossip!! LoL. I'm such a bad person, this is suppose to be the season of Lent!! And I'm not even sacrificing anything!!! I'd better start or I will be sorry later. Anyway, I promised myself that I have to finish doing all the class decorations this holidays. Or else, Mr.Sim is seriously going to chop off my head. YIKES!!! Just hope no one tears it and vandalizes it again!! Or I'll be SERIOUSLY ANGRY!!!! Who wouldn't if all their hard work was just wasted like that??

Whole time before Chemistry exam, the guys were like seriously annoying me!!! I really can't believe Jo Lin sent him the picture!!! Its been like more than 4 months, and they all STILL CAN'T ACCEPT IT!!!! Forget it larh guys!!! I'm never going there again!!! And I'm sorry if it hurts you guys!!! I just can't help it, I have to think for myself as well!! Not just other people!!

I also SOO have to update my MP4, its been like months since I downloaded all the latest songs!! I really have to get to that!! Also hope that all the plans that have been planned goes right!! If it does, it would be SERIOUSLY FUN!! I can't say what, because I don't want CERTAIN people knowing about it!! Well, that's about it, till next post!! Ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Congrats, Gabriel!!!

First and foremost, I would like to say,

Congratulations to all SPM candidates who got straight A1's!!!! Also to those who passed with flying colours!!! Most importantly, congratulations Gabriel Stephens for getting 10A's!!! You passed UPSR, PMR and now finally SPM with amazing results!!! Also to other ex-Form 5s in SMKSJ, congrats!!!

Skipped school today. Many people did too. Hon Mun texted me while I was still sleeping, asking why didn't I go to school when I said I was going. Just told him I overslept, LoL. I asked him who all were in class, turns out only him and Bryan!! LOL. I FINALLY, in what felt like ages, got a GOOD night sleep. I feel totally rested. Most of the days, I would feel so damn tired, that I really could sleep anywhere, even in the shower, and I'm not joking. =P

Had piano class in the afternoon. Teacher was stressing on and on about my Grade 5 theory exam is next Monday and why the hell haven't I even revised. Told her that I'm having school exams as well!!! Can't exactly ask me to revise so many things at once, eh?? Well, that quiten her. Which reminds me, I still haven't given Mr.Mike her number for he wants a piano teacher for his daughters. Maybe I'll walk over to give it to him after school tomorrow, just hope he IS there.

School. Tomorrow will be the last day for our March exams!! Then, school HOLIDAYS!! For one week only. Soooo HAVE to go out with the girls. I really MISS them!!! Especially Ramona, I hardly get to have a DECENT conversation with her nowadays. Liz called me up yesterday and told me how the debate when. Apparently, they lost the first round. She said they were intimidated by their opponents!! I don't blame her after hearing a little bit of their personalities. Quite funny stories she was telling me yesterday. Luckily, Ramona liked her birthday present!!! I seriously didn't know what to get her!! At least no damage was done!!

I really hope my aunt comes down next week.!! I guess that's when we will celebrate Gabe's amazing results!!! I really MISS her!!! Had a really LONG chat with her just now. She's the only person, besides Godwin and my best friends which I confide in all my problems and my social life, which is currently in a MESS now!! I don't know why things have to ALWAYS go wrong....but I told her the whole story of 'we' breaking up and all....she was really shocked to hear that. *sighs* What to do, truth be told, I really still miss him and like him so much. I don't know when am I ever going to learn my lesson...haih.

Anyways, I better be off to the shower before my mum comes back!! Till next post then, ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Falling Apart....

The very first thing I would like to say is,

HAPPY SWEET 16 RAMONA!!!! Hope you had a good time today with your debate competition!! Liz too!! You guys have to tell me EVERYTHING!!!

Today was SERIOUSLY one of the worst days I had in years. First, Biology paper was so DAMN HARD!!! I'M GOING TO FAIL!!!! I was going on and on about it during recess, and Janice, Ashley and Rachel were like, chill la, we are all going to do badly larh, your not the only one. BUT they really don't get it!!! I don't EXACTLY mind getting a fail on the very first exam, because its like normal when we switch to Form 4. The big problem here is WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO TELL MY MOTHER?????? She's seriously going to KILL ME!!!! Those of you who know me well would know that my mum isn't exactly like everyone else's mum.

The worst part was when the 4 Nekad students said that many people in my class FAILED PHYSICS!!!! AND I AM ONE OF THEM!!!! I really LOST IT when my classmate told me. What the hell am I suppose to tell my mum???? Plus, my elder brother NEVER failed Physics, Biology or Chemistry. He only failed Moral. The upside is that I pass my Add Maths. The whole time during History exam, I was only thinking : OMG, how can I fail Physics???!!!!! I really never expected it!!! Because I managed to answer the questions okay. Maybe a C or D okay la, but a FAIL????

Then there's the problem of my family. I really don't understand why can't I just have a normal life like everyone else. Sometimes I would get so angry with her, but I would just hold it. Each passing day it would get worse, how am I suppose to live with so much of hatred and anger at her?? I don't feel like boring my friends with this anymore for they have been hearing it for the past year, or 2. I just want it to go away, once and for all. The worst part is I am like, alone carrying this thing, though my friends are always there to support me, but they just won't really get it. Plus the timing has to be so perfect until 'we' break up around the same time. How much more bad news can I possibly take???

The last thing is my dad. Ever since he trimmed the grass in our garden last year before Christmas, he had this really bad neck sprain. It didn't go off, but just kept coming worse. After New Year, he went to see the doctor, and he said that his neck has too much tension. So he gave some medication for that. Unfortunately, it didn't cure. His neck was back to normal, but the pain stretched right up to his thigh. It can be really painful till he can't even walk, and he can't even bend down. He went to see the doctor again 2 days ago, and the doctor said that its got to do with his nerves. His nerve cells are now crashing into pelvic girdle's place, and that is what that causes the pain. He gave my dad medication, and told him that if it doesn't get better in 3 days, he has to take an X-ray to see how serious is it.

The doctor also said not to do any housework, or lifting of any heavy loads. When my mum ask me to tell my dad to cut the grass, I told her about the whole problem my dad was having. And she can tell me that whatever I said was just plain excuses for my dad is lazy to do work. I got so MAD with her, and we ended up shouting at each other. C'mon la, what kind of sick person would ask a person who can hardly walk to go and cut the grass when THAT was the cause of the whole problem my dad is having now??? I really don't know how much longer I can put up with her. Sure, I've put up with this for the last 3 years, but how much more does she expect me to be able to cope with??

Well, that's about it. SPM results are out tomorrow, hopefully my brother will get straight A1's!!! Ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

ADD MATHS!!!!

The very FIRST thing I would like to blog about is ADD MATHS PAPER WAS A KILLER!!!!!! I seriously don't know if I could EVEN PASS!!!! If I FAIL, I will be SO DEAD!!!!!

Alright, enough talk about Add Maths. Today is Janice's Sweet 16!!!

Happy Sweet 16 Janice!!! Hope you have a good one!! For it only comes once in a lifetime!!! And STOP studying on your birthday!!

Came home from school after going to Edeton. Met a few people I know. Oh, and I found out the REAL reason why 'he' became so distant with me which ended with a break. Obviously, I can't post it here, but I'll tell my friends though. =P But I seriously can't believe that was the reason, if he told me in the first place, all this wouldn't have happened. He seriously misunderstood EVERYTHING!!! *sighs* Its like so weird, part of me wants to be just friends to avoid any more complications between us, but the other part really REALLY still wants to be with him. I really need my consultant, Ramona!!!! Anyway, all this will have to be put on hold until I FINISH my exams. I really want to do well!!! Who doesn't??

Spent my afternoon chatting with Janice on the phone, then going online and IM-ing Vincent, Rubinder and Jo Lin. All also was chatting about how hard Add Maths was and how we are all going to fail. Afterthat was mainly chatting with Rubinder, mostly all about my social life, got nothing better to do. So, I practically told him everything about my social life. Then Vincent sent me a photo of my pencilbox he took in class that day.

Damn cute, right?? LoL. Tomorrow have to go to market with my grandmother early in the morning. I thought I could SLEEP!!! Then got tuition at 2pm to 5pm. Go to church at 5.45pm and come back at 7.45pm, then got tuition again at 8pm to 9.15pm. Tomorrow is a seriously busy day!!!! Well, that's about it then. Till next post then, ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

The End.

Wow, it's Wednesday already. Before you know it, we will all be celebrating Christmas again and then preparing for SPM next year. *sighs*

Anyway, let me update on the events that has happened since my last post. The very first thing, EXAMS ARE THIS FRIDAY!!!!! I'm SOOO NOT prepared!!! Hopefully, I will be, especially ADD MATHS!!!!! As long as I don't fail, I would be SUPER DUPER HAPPY!!!! It seems that most people will fail the first test, and I definitely don't want to be included in that!!!!

The second major thing was that I finally confronted him on Monday, which resulted to a break. I seriously don't know who's fault at it, whether his for being so damn distant ever since I told him something, which isn't a big deal, for it concerns ME and NOT him. Anyway, his reaction was turning distant with me, so I took the message really clearly, and said we might as well break up, and he didn't even object, which proved me absolutely right all this while. Guess he didn't exactly like me as much as I thought he did. *sighs* My friends were really supportive. What would I do without them??

THANKS SO MUCH GUYS FOR LISTENING PATIENTLY TO ME WHILE I WENT ON AND ON ABOUT THE WHOLE THING!!!!

But if I was honest with myself, I really do miss him... no matter what he said or did. Really pathetic larh. =( That's about it then, till next post then!! Ciao!!!

*signing off*

-aNgELiNe-