Break or not???

on Friday, February 27, 2009

Hello again!!! Today wasn't that bad. I've been putting off facing him and asking what the hell is going on since Monday, and my younger brother has been like pestering me to JUST DO IT. So, I said to Liz, today I will confront him and I will do my oral presentation, which I've also been chickening out since I was afraid of doing it in front of the entire class. I told Liz that if I don't do it, she has to kill me (not literally, obviously). She said she'll pour water over me. I guess that's fair enough, since I hate soaking myself with uniform on.

Before recess, teachers had a meeting. Liz, Dhavina, Cheryl and me were fooling around acting out the script Liz wrote for the competition. She seriously did a good job, well done Liz!! Its really cool, she mixed up the drama from 90210 and Gossip Girl. Typical. Liz wants me to act as Kate, was a bit shocked at first....but come to think of it, I think its really cool and like a nice opportunity. Well, let's just see how it works out!!! Anyway, when teachers finished their meeting, our timetables changed, AGAIN! I really don't like the new timetable, I soooooo prefer the old one!!! Then, suddenly everyone was like, En.Saufadi is our new class teacher!! I was like...WTH???!!!!! Sure, I LOATHE Mr.Sim, but I definitely don't want our class teacher to be a discipline teacher who happens to be really strict!!! Thank God it was just a prank!!

Recess bell rang. Went down to canteen with the girls. Operation talk to 'him' was on. Unfortunately, couldn't find him in the canteen. Janice, Ashley and Liz didn't want to eat, so we went back to class. I went down back, looking for him. Met one of his best friends, who told me that he DIDN'T COME!!! I was like....UGHH!!!! The day I finally have to nerve to go and talk to him, is the day HE DOESN'T COME!!!! *sighs* Went back to class in low spirits. Listened to 5 people doing their oral. Then, after so much persuasion from Liz and Dhavina, I went up and did mine. I have to say, I think it went really well. At least I didn't screw up anything!!! =)

Oh yeah, yesterday, the funniest thing happened during Moral lesson. Pn. Wong, our moral teacher, was telling us that girls shouldn't really dress sexily. She said we could if we wanted to, but take the time and place into consideration. Then she said this really hillarious thing that I never imagined a TEACHER would say it, somemore a MORAL teacher. This is what she said:

"Girls, you can wear spaghetti straps and tight clothes. But if you want to show off, you must have something to show also! I have seen, during Chinese New Year, some of the young Chinese girls, wearing tight cheongsams, but got nothing to show! So FLAT!"

OMG. We were like so shocked that she said that. All of us couldn't stop laughing. The way she said it, with actions as well, was SERIOUSLY AMUSING!! Well, that wraps up pretty much everything, till next time then, ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Distance....

on Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Two weeks ago, my life was absolutely perfect. I am always the type of person who believes that when good things happen, there is sure to be a disastrous thing that follows up. The worst part is if that the better the good thing is, the more terrible the bad thing will be. Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in superstition..in fact, I hate superstition because I think its just a quick and easy way to earn money, the best example is feng shui. No offense to those who DO believe in this, I'm merely stating my opinion.

Anyway, the reason I do believe in this particular thing is because it has happened in many faces of my 15 years and 2 months on Earth. I can't list down the particular events, but all I can say is that its seriously terrible for a person to go through with it. As a teenager, I'm not exactly proud about the things in my life, basically, I just live to go through with all these challenges. The older I get, the more challenging things become.

Let's just say that I really started to understand fully the many emotions humans go through in their life when I entered high school. I knew exactly how it felt to be extremely happy, as if you were on a cloud nine, and vice versa. I knew exactly how angry a person could get, or how upset or confused. My friends are perfect examples to this. Everyday there's a different story with mixed emotions. But, as they say, it's just a way of life.

I'm not afraid to say that my friends are basically the people who actually helped me get through the things that go on in my life, whether they realise it or not. Janice is always there to lend a helping hand and listen to me when I'm having a dilemma. Liz is the one that would try her absolute best to cheer everyone up, which can be amusing. Ramona is like my counselor, she gives excellent advise and without her I would pratically be lost on what to to. Afie is a seriously good listener when it comes to me complaining about everything. And Ashley is always there on a sort of standby if anything goes wrong. Thanks a lot guys, if you are reading this!!!

For the past 3 years, I built a sort of wall around me to protect myself from getting hurt from other people, you won't see why its necessary unless you were in my place or you are one my best friends. So far, I've let 2 people pass through the wall, and its seriously not doing any good to me. The best part is my studies are like a perfect distraction from all these things, and I am so glad about that. You problably thing I'm crazy for spending time to write these crazy things down, but its more tiresome to use a pen and paper to relieve myself of my thoughts!! *grins*

Anyway, I'm not exactly going through a good episode currently. I really hope things would go well. Worst thing could happen is a break, but that beats me from feeling like this the whole time, right?? *sighs* How could I've been so stupid?? My friends were so right, I would definitely be involved in a mess if I said 'yes', but I didn't listen all because I liked him way too much. Well, I've gotta go, and I really hope this would be resolved soon.. ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Upset and Enraged are just TOO Tame Words to Express My Feelings!!

on Tuesday, February 24, 2009

GRRR!!!! Gosh, I feel so damn MAD!!! Plus, UPSET!!!! This is week is turning out to be one of the worst weeks I've had since the beginning of the year!!!! First, he started becoming distant, second, my hopeless mum who has no better work other than to make me so annoyed and irritated and last BUT not least, my stupid class teacher, Mr. Sim.

I don't freaking understand WHAT THE HELL IS HIS DAMN PROBLEM!!!! All because our class was named for having the dirtiest windows, he comes to our class and lectures us NON-STOP. On top of it, he even got into an ARGUMENT with Pn. Kanda. DAMN SILLY LARH!!!!! He can even ask me why I didn't buy the things for class cleaning, like a small pail and a window cleaner, and give him the receipt. C'MON LARH!!! I'M HEAD OF CLASS DECO!!! NOT CLEANLINESS!!!!! And when I pointed that out, he can tell me "You can't look at it that way." WHAT THE HELL IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?????? I so HATE HIM!!!! Plus, he wanted to change our places!!!! Meaning, we all have to sit according to the name list!!! He hardly even comes to our class, and the one time he comes in, HE CREATES SO MUCH DARN HAVOCK!!!! On top of everything else, the deco which I have already put up in class, WAS TORN!!!! WHICH BLOODY IDIOT IS VANDALISING MY HARD WORK????? ARGH!!!! =(

Next, I was pretty upset about 'him'. Ever since I told him one of my secrets, he has been like SO DISTANT!!! He won't reply my messages till a few hours later, sometimes WON'T even reply. And his replies just make me more confuse than ever. Each time I want to confront him and ask him what the hell is wrong with him, I'LL CHICKEN OUT!!! *sighs* Its been like what, 3 days or so. How long more is this going to go on?? All we say to each other is 'hi' and 'bye'. What kind of couple is that??? I seriously don't know what to think anymore. =(

Lastly, is my parents......mainly my mum. I obviously can't write down what happened here, for its kinda like personal family stuff. I REALLY hope I'll feel better soon..... I seriously hate feeling like this. The only thing that lift my spirits up was when Liz told me about the drama script. Till then, ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Twist and turns!!

on Friday, February 20, 2009

This past week has been like....WOW. There has been like, so many unexpected things going on!! Monday was just like any other Monday I have, Tuesday was 'sukantara'. Its this activity where all students have to participate in 100 metres (running), long jump and 'lontar peluru', which is this thing where you have to like throw something, forgot what its called, as far as possible. As usual, me and my friends didn't participate. We just helped teacher out in the taking time and all those kind of little duties we can do for them. The best part was no studies, and I got to see 'him' almost the whole time!! =P

So anyway, Wednesday was really good. 'He' walked me back, which is real sweet of him, plus one more thing he did which I can't write about here!! Yesterday, when I came home, I was like... OMG!!! My mum is on leave!!! Don't get me wrong, but the days when my mum is at home is like...torture!!! She can never EVER do things on her own, and each time will be shouting at one person to go do it for her. Normally, I'm her primary target, since I'm the only daughter she has. *sighs* Later, had to prepare for my English oral presentation. My topic is 'The Purpose of Our Existence'. Pretty lame, right?? But I seriously have no idea on what to talk about!! Liz did on poverty, but she lost just 1 mark because teacher doesn't like depressing topics!!!

So, in order to be out of reach of my mum's sharp claws, I went outside and sat in my dad's car, and prepared for my presentation there. Crazy, right?? But I had like...seriously no choice if I wanted to be prepared!!! Managed to memorise the whole thing. Was suppose to present it today, but teacher had to judge the debate competition. She allowed me and Liz to be spectators!! It was like...really fun!!! But at the same time, I think the teachers picked the wrong winner!!! =P Went for badminton after school, 'he' texted me saying he was sorry about something earlier in school, which I will not write here, and when I didn't reply, he actually assumed I was mad at him. *sighs* The truth was I was at the badminton hall and my shorts doesn't have any pockets, so I just left my phone in my bag and went off.

Anyway, I texted him later saying that I wasn't angry and stuff. The good news of this week is my mum has gone to Genting Highlands for the weekend!!! Damn freaking HAPPY!!!! *grins* Though, I have to get up early again tomorrow, to go to the market with my grandmother. *sighs* This people just don't get it that I want to SLEEP!!!!! Well, that's about it then, ciao!!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing out*

Insecure much????

on Friday, February 13, 2009

Today was a seriously great day. After school, had LEO meeting, but before that I sort of 'ran' home with Ashley in tow to photostat some registration forms for Ramona because the machine in school was spoil. Took my h/p with me, then.

During LEO meeting, 'he' texted me asking me where I am. So I replied saying that I was currently in LEO meeting. After meeting, had to wait for him to finish his meeting with the Interacts. He gave me a valentine gift then, won't say what it was....but it was really sweet of him.

Later, went out for lunch with him and the Interact BOD. The funny part was when Nesha spilt the salt from the container to the table. Then everyone was teasing her, what with today being Friday the 13th, being a bad luck day. I couldn't stop laughing by the things went during the lunch. Then they all left first, leaving me and 'him' behind. When we were done, we walked back to school together, chit chatting all the while.

Went back home. Took shower and dressed up in 20 minutes, which is considered a record for me. Oh well, I was still late for tuition class anyway. Came back home later, then had dinner. Now, this is what that concerned me. 'He' texted me asking me if it was okay if he gave something called a 'love pot', being sold by Interact Club to another person. I was like....okay, go ahead. But seriously, I'm like, not exactly okay with it. I mean, c'mon, who wouldn't be??? Though I have a vague feeling that I know who he is giving it to. *sighs*

Well, I guess that's about it. Hope this feeling will go off tomorrow. Ciao!!

-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*

Too much to handle???

on Thursday, February 12, 2009

Its been like a really REALLY loooooooong time since I last blogged!!! Well, to keep my blog updated, from now on I'll blog every Thursdays, for I have no tuition on Thursdays. If I'm really busy, then I'll blog the following day. That way, my friends, especially Ramona, won't keep asking me to blog!!!! Lol!! =P

Anyway, today was like...REALLY eventful!!! I never in my wildest dreams thought that this would happen again!!! Of course, I won't mention what, you'll just have to be my good friend to know what I'm talking about!!! *grins* In spite of me being thrilled about this, I still feel bad for what I did to her. *sighs* I guess everything comes with a sacrifice, right???

This year has been like....full of ups and downs!!! First, me and my friends got separated!!! Meaning, we are not in the same class!! Except for Liz, that is. We still have quite a lot of fun. At first it was difficult, since I am so used to seating beside Janice, and Liz with Ramona, but we are doing really well now. With the company of Dhavina and Thineshwary, life in 4 Setia isn't that bad, plus we have two clowns at the back who are constantly cracking jokes. Boy, do they really make me laugh!!!

We also have this drama competition coming up. All the science stream classes are compulsory to participate. Naturally, Liz was in charge of doing the script, meaning she is the director. I hope we can pull it off next week!!! May the best class win!! In the beginning of the year, I was like seriously stressed out about how much we have to learn and the amount of homework, but now, I know I will be able to do just fine. Hopefully.

In my previous post, I said I'll put up the Christmas pictures, and there it is!! Hope you enjoy it!!! Till next week then!!!



-aNgELiNe-

*signing off*